someone please help I am a schizophrenic

[Religious phobic]

When I was child my brother placed a carving Knife to my throat and made me beg for my life. When we were in Care he also tried to kill a girl with a knife. When I was mentally ill I broke his car ariel and let down his tyre and he placed carving knives and kitchen Knives all over his kitchen worktops as a threat. I had never seen so many Knives. I have schizophrenia and believe in reincarnation and started to believe he was Jack the Ripper in a past life because of his love of the carving knive and I could just picture him up to his knees in blood and guts. Now I looked at his place of Birth Perivale it is a anagram of RAPE EVIL. The football team he supports Liverpool ( EVIL ) and I only have two photo's of myself both as a child and he is in a Levi's top.
Also Jimmy Savile my brothers name is James
MY JIM AS EVIL, AS VILE AS JIMMY SAVILE, You see ?

[Religious phobic]

you have to admit bit creepy for a schizophrenic

[Icarus]

Have you had professional help?  If not, are you in an economic position that would make that kind of help possible?