I'm just scared because I was raised catholic, etc
Then I think you should be talking to a priest, not us. There's obviously nothing we can do for you.
An excellent suggestion. I can recommend Father Bruno. He is very kind, gentle, and sympathetic.
Thanks Books

As I appreciate anyone here at HAF sending me referrals, Priest biz has been meh lately....
This thread by manga looks an awful lot like this other thread on a totally different forum by pork222. 
Atheist Republic
Oddly enough it also looks quite similar to this one by a poster named Kamil at
SKEPTIC !
And check out Kamil's response to another post in that thread:
I am really starting to become skeptical of certain religious things, but this fear keeps coming back. I am deathy afraid of any potential afterlife, and I know for the most part that we cannot rule out the brain, and it is premature to definitely assert that a soul that like Mathew always says that is non physical can perceive light and hear things. I get that. However, my priest knows that lately I've been questioning, and he sent me some of these Christian videos of people seeing hell. I have seen quite a few maybe 5-6 where a person (usually not too religious) will have an NDE or some sort of health issue, and suddenly see absolute darkness, maybe hear people screaming, some report seeing demons, etc. They say the place is in complete isolation from other things and they feel really sad. Then, they call out to God or Jesus and get rescued. The hand pulling one out of hell for example is common across these NDEs. Does that not at all scare you?
Weird, it's like the same person, or maybe guys it's some type of out of body, out of mind, cross forum ethereal posting experience?
Or
CFEPE as we like to say in the biz, what do you guys think?
edited to fix link to Skeptic page, and to also mention that all three of these NDE's stories regarding Foreman were posted on 7/9 and 7/10/17. (One here, one at Atheist Republic, and one at Skeptic).