Title: The Pursuit of Happiness
Post by: Hollownucleus on April 01, 2009, 09:08:20 PM
Post by: Hollownucleus on April 01, 2009, 09:08:20 PM
Hello everyone,
I have been browsing the forum for a couple weeks and really like the attitudes and personalities I have seen so far so I joined up.
I live in Tampa Florida.
I am a fairly new Atheist. I was brought up in a Christian home and have frequented church most of my life.Two years ago I started getting more involved in church and became the leader of the youth Sunday school class. After a months of trying to teach kids the bible and having to find excuses to why god decided to kill thousands of seemingly innocent people each week I got tired. I have always found myself making excuses for Christianity and frankly just couldn't do it anymore. One day I was taking a shower and realized that I was just playing the game, going through the motions of Christianity without actually believing it. It was pretty painful to realize that and it really made me depressed for a while.
I decided to just make a clean break. I emailed my pastor and explained everything I was going through. He of course tried to convince me otherwise but I had made up my mind. I stopped going to church and eventually had to tell my family why I wasn't going. That was a classic moment, my mom was crying, my dad was angry and my brother was trying to argue with me but I got my points across and felt relieved to get it off my chest.
It has been a year since I made that decision and now I am more happy than ever. I really can't explain what it is like to not have to fake it anymore.
I am looking forward to spending time here with other people that share my point of view and learning more about myself.
I have been browsing the forum for a couple weeks and really like the attitudes and personalities I have seen so far so I joined up.
I live in Tampa Florida.
I am a fairly new Atheist. I was brought up in a Christian home and have frequented church most of my life.Two years ago I started getting more involved in church and became the leader of the youth Sunday school class. After a months of trying to teach kids the bible and having to find excuses to why god decided to kill thousands of seemingly innocent people each week I got tired. I have always found myself making excuses for Christianity and frankly just couldn't do it anymore. One day I was taking a shower and realized that I was just playing the game, going through the motions of Christianity without actually believing it. It was pretty painful to realize that and it really made me depressed for a while.
I decided to just make a clean break. I emailed my pastor and explained everything I was going through. He of course tried to convince me otherwise but I had made up my mind. I stopped going to church and eventually had to tell my family why I wasn't going. That was a classic moment, my mom was crying, my dad was angry and my brother was trying to argue with me but I got my points across and felt relieved to get it off my chest.
It has been a year since I made that decision and now I am more happy than ever. I really can't explain what it is like to not have to fake it anymore.
I am looking forward to spending time here with other people that share my point of view and learning more about myself.
Title: Re: The Pursuit of Happiness
Post by: Ihateyoumike on April 01, 2009, 09:13:06 PM
Post by: Ihateyoumike on April 01, 2009, 09:13:06 PM
Welcome to the forum, Hollownucleus. Thanks for the nice introduction. 
Title: Re: The Pursuit of Happiness
Post by: joeactor on April 01, 2009, 09:15:49 PM
Post by: joeactor on April 01, 2009, 09:15:49 PM
Wow - I can hear the stress and strain in your story... must have been a real relief!
Nice to meet you.
Hope to have some interesting discussions on the forum,
JoeActor
Nice to meet you.
Hope to have some interesting discussions on the forum,
JoeActor
Title: Re: The Pursuit of Happiness
Post by: Will on April 01, 2009, 09:17:05 PM
Post by: Will on April 01, 2009, 09:17:05 PM
It's amazing to see different people from different backgrounds making the same journey.
Welcome.
Welcome.
Title: Re: The Pursuit of Happiness
Post by: Whitney on April 02, 2009, 01:02:02 AM
Post by: Whitney on April 02, 2009, 01:02:02 AM
Hi Hollow, welcome to the forum and thanks for sharing your story.
Title: Re: The Pursuit of Happiness
Post by: Recusant on April 02, 2009, 03:41:19 AM
Post by: Recusant on April 02, 2009, 03:41:19 AM
Welcome, Hollownucleus! I think you picked an auspicious day (http://www.happyatheistforum.com/viewtopic.php?f=4&t=3029) to join HAF. 
Title: Re: The Pursuit of Happiness
Post by: Twiddler on April 03, 2009, 01:27:15 AM
Post by: Twiddler on April 03, 2009, 01:27:15 AM
Welcome to the forum Hollow, I'm sure you'll be happy here as many of us have had a story like yours in one way or another.
Title: Re: The Pursuit of Happiness
Post by: curiosityandthecat on April 03, 2009, 02:04:37 AM
Post by: curiosityandthecat on April 03, 2009, 02:04:37 AM
Wonderful, wonderful.
Funny, when I first saw your name I thought it said Homunculus (http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Homunculus). Love that word.
Welcome.
Funny, when I first saw your name I thought it said Homunculus (http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Homunculus). Love that word.
Welcome.
Title: Re: The Pursuit of Happiness
Post by: rlrose328 on April 03, 2009, 04:51:37 AM
Post by: rlrose328 on April 03, 2009, 04:51:37 AM
Hey Hollownucleus... It does feel good to not fake it anymore, I know what you mean. Congrats on making that step and not trying to make yourself believe. I'm sure are thousands of people who are doing just that.
And welcome to the forum!
And welcome to the forum!
Title: Re: The Pursuit of Happiness
Post by: SallyMutant on April 04, 2009, 07:20:17 AM
Post by: SallyMutant on April 04, 2009, 07:20:17 AM
Good point, Recusant/Menckin! Hidy, Hollownucleus!