I wrote another essay about how the Christian "god" sucks at leading my Life and so cruel and vindictive for no reason. This being is a cruel, vindictive monster. This being is truly bizarre and so dark and terrifying. Let me tell you: this being has done nothing to protect me from bad things in my Life - that should tell you something right?! This being has no claim on my Life and I don't owe this being goddamn anything!
https://seylee.medium.com/god-is-a-cruel-vindictive-monster-5c608e8d4a54?postPublishedType=repub
A glimmer of light, with the first sentence of that blog entry. I suppose it's as good a place as any to vent, and work your way toward discarding the god baggage entirely. It seems like the wretched co-worker is in the rear view mirror and I hope the god gets left behind as well. It serves as a place to focus anger, but there is hope that in time the anger will become less significant and the god will become superfluous.