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Title: As a simplistic measure of how happy you are with your life
Post by: xSilverPhinx on November 24, 2020, 09:17:14 PM
Just a little food for thought: if you were given the option to relive your life from the moment you were born, how much of it would you do all over again? Would you allow yourself to make the same mistakes? Would you make the same life choices?

I've been pondering these questions all day.  :P
Title: Re: As a simplistic measure of how happy you are with your life
Post by: No one on November 24, 2020, 09:48:17 PM
I'd chose to be stillborn.
Title: Re: As a simplistic measure of how happy you are with your life
Post by: xSilverPhinx on November 24, 2020, 11:21:08 PM
Quote from: No one on November 24, 2020, 09:48:17 PM
I'd chose to be stillborn.

But then loads of people would miss out on your company.  :P
Title: Re: As a simplistic measure of how happy you are with your life
Post by: No one on November 24, 2020, 11:50:52 PM
For all the better off they'd be.
Title: Re: As a simplistic measure of how happy you are with your life
Post by: Randy on November 25, 2020, 12:01:29 AM
I've often thought of the mistakes I've made growing up. I wouldn't change anything though. These sorts of things made me what I am today and quite frankly I can't see myself as anyone else. I'm happy with the way things turned out.
Title: Re: As a simplistic measure of how happy you are with your life
Post by: billy rubin on November 25, 2020, 12:20:46 AM
the only things i would change would be to people i was mean to.

i would treat them bettrr
Title: Re: As a simplistic measure of how happy you are with your life
Post by: Icarus on November 25, 2020, 01:05:13 AM
I am not obsessed with regret but there are things that I could have done better.  Among the things that I regret is that I did not pay enough attention to my academic pursuits while in university.  I managed to get through but was too much distracted with other interests to earn cum laude status. I truly believe that I had the mental capacity to have done much better that I did.  I was an ordinary student, not the exceptional one that I might have been.   Maybe that is reverting to the Dunning -Kruger effect but I do not think so. 

There were other areas of my life that I would have traveled differently.  But all that is hind sight and there is no going back.  The whole question is problematic because as I have aged I have observed that the better paths were not immediately apparent in my more youthful days. 

On balance I am pleased that my life has developed as well as it has.  I have had some wonderful experiences along with some that were  devastating.  The devastating part is that the love of my life died suddenly on or about our 30th anniversary. I recovered somewhat and have been in a new life with another woman that I like and respect.  All things considered I am a lucky bastard who may not deserve all the the good things that I have been favored with.,.

Would I do anything different? Probably not if I was still in my twenties or thirties, In hind sight I would do a bunch of things differently but only because I am a lot older and .....possibly...........a little wiser.

Title: Re: As a simplistic measure of how happy you are with your life
Post by: Tank on November 25, 2020, 09:24:13 AM
I would have paid more attention at school and done chemistry rather than music later on in school.
Title: Re: As a simplistic measure of how happy you are with your life
Post by: Bad Penny II on November 25, 2020, 10:36:12 AM
Quote from: No one on November 24, 2020, 09:48:17 PM
I'd chose to be stillborn.

Oh no we can't have that, I will insist that Tank finances a trip back through time so we can convince in utero you to stay the course. Maybe we'll play some music to you in there, by those bling wearing guys the young people like.
Title: Re: As a simplistic measure of how happy you are with your life
Post by: Bad Penny II on November 25, 2020, 10:48:17 AM
Quote from: xSilverPhinx on November 24, 2020, 09:17:14 PM
Just a little food for thought: if you were given the option to relive your life from the moment you were born, how much of it would you do all over again? Would you allow yourself to make the same mistakes? Would you make the same life choices?

I've been pondering these questions all day.  :P

The God Gary can make that possible.
Let me know if you're interested and I'll tell you how.
Title: Re: As a simplistic measure of how happy you are with your life
Post by: Tank on November 25, 2020, 11:21:55 AM
Quote from: No one on November 24, 2020, 09:48:17 PM
I'd chose to be stillborn.

How? If you weren't born how could you choose not to be born?
Title: Re: As a simplistic measure of how happy you are with your life
Post by: Bad Penny II on November 25, 2020, 11:44:38 AM
Quote from: Tank on November 25, 2020, 11:21:55 AM
Quote from: No one on November 24, 2020, 09:48:17 PM
I'd chose to be stillborn.

How? If you weren't born how could you choose not to be born?

Sentience starts some time before birth, he could have taken stock of what's out there and decided he didn't want it.  Lots of babies seem quite annoyed about being born.
Title: Re: As a simplistic measure of how happy you are with your life
Post by: Tank on November 25, 2020, 12:01:47 PM
Quote from: Bad Penny II on November 25, 2020, 11:44:38 AM
Quote from: Tank on November 25, 2020, 11:21:55 AM
Quote from: No one on November 24, 2020, 09:48:17 PM
I'd chose to be stillborn.

How? If you weren't born how could you choose not to be born?

Sentience starts some time before birth, he could have taken stock of what's out there and decided he didn't want it.  Lots of babies seem quite annoyed about being born.

Wouldn't you be if you were held upside down and spanked? On second thoughts don't answer that!
Title: Re: As a simplistic measure of how happy you are with your life
Post by: No one on November 25, 2020, 12:09:06 PM
(https://www.trackie.com/track-and-field/img/layout/icon_quote.jpg)Argentium:
if you were given the option to relive your life from the moment you were born

(https://www.trackie.com/track-and-field/img/layout/icon_quote.jpg)this guy:
I'd chose to be stillborn.

(https://www.trackie.com/track-and-field/img/layout/icon_quote.jpg)Mr. Pam:
How? If you weren't born how could you choose not to be born?

But I was born, and I'd choose not to do it at all if given the choice to go back to that moment.

Title: Re: As a simplistic measure of how happy you are with your life
Post by: Bad Penny II on November 25, 2020, 01:13:56 PM
Quote from: No one link=topic=16780.msg407674#msg407674
But I was born, and I'd choose not to do it at all if given the choice to go back to that moment.

That's my problem with Darwin's creation.
Does anyone ask the wildebeest if they want to do this thing?
I don't think so, insidiously imperatives are sunk in our cells.
If life could be all weekends, if not for the ever present fear of lions, maybe it'd be a life worth the living
Wilbur says
What? Who?
Wilbur, he's a wildebeest, he says he likes most other wildebeests, running, a joy in the working of his muscles, eating grasses, lions aren't much of a concern.
I was about to denunciate this life thing and you posit Wilbur's point of view.
Green II wouldn't have done any of this, do you know anything about his whereabouts?
Title: Re: As a simplistic measure of how happy you are with your life
Post by: No one on November 25, 2020, 01:30:15 PM
What makes you think I am not a wildebeest?
Title: Re: As a simplistic measure of how happy you are with your life
Post by: Tank on November 25, 2020, 08:33:51 PM
Quote from: No one on November 25, 2020, 01:30:15 PM
What makes you think I am not a wildebeest?

Wildebeest can't type.
Title: Re: As a simplistic measure of how happy you are with your life
Post by: No one on November 25, 2020, 08:58:56 PM
Says who?
Title: Re: As a simplistic measure of how happy you are with your life
Post by: Dark Lightning on November 25, 2020, 09:35:47 PM
It only takes a giant keyboard. Or, speech to print software.  ;D
Title: Re: As a simplistic measure of how happy you are with your life
Post by: No one on November 25, 2020, 10:02:51 PM
Or if you were bitten by a silver werewildebeest during of a stampede of wild elephants in your own home between 3:55 and 4:00 p.m. on the Fourth of July during a hailstorm. Henceforth, you carry the crushing weight until you can pass on the curse. Or so I have heard.
Title: Re: As a simplistic measure of how happy you are with your life
Post by: Randy on November 26, 2020, 01:41:51 AM
He's the only wildebeest that I know of who loves tacos.
Title: Re: As a simplistic measure of how happy you are with your life
Post by: Sandra Craft on November 26, 2020, 01:48:25 AM
Quote from: xSilverPhinx on November 24, 2020, 09:17:14 PM
Just a little food for thought: if you were given the option to relive your life from the moment you were born, how much of it would you do all over again? Would you allow yourself to make the same mistakes? Would you make the same life choices?

I've been pondering these questions all day.  :P

I would change everything between ages 7 and 14, and other than that I'd try to take my education more seriously, and if not definitely join the Army after High School.  Just get some decent training and job experience.
Title: Re: As a simplistic measure of how happy you are with your life
Post by: Anne D. on November 26, 2020, 03:36:58 AM
Quote from: xSilverPhinx on November 24, 2020, 09:17:14 PM
Just a little food for thought: if you were given the option to relive your life from the moment you were born, how much of it would you do all over again? Would you allow yourself to make the same mistakes? Would you make the same life choices?

I've been pondering these questions all day.  :P

Assuming I got to go back with the knowledge I have now, I'd go back to when I was a kid or teen and do tons of things differently from then on. If I didn't get to go back with that knowledge, nah, I wouldn't go back. I'd just fuck up things again in a completely new way. My life is absolutely fine now, but I still have tons of regrets. Lots of things I should have done differently.

No One, I've always guessed you were a wildebeest. Nice to get confirmation though.

Sandra, the army? Really? I've always thought about what it might've been like to join up straight out of high school. Don't know if it would've been for the better or the worse.
Title: Re: As a simplistic measure of how happy you are with your life
Post by: billy rubin on November 26, 2020, 12:44:20 PM
on reflection, if i had time to do my life over again i woul probably become an evolutionary parasitologist.
Title: Re: As a simplistic measure of how happy you are with your life
Post by: Bluenose on November 27, 2020, 03:05:16 AM
I've pondered this from time to time.  For example, I think my first marriage was a mistake and to make matters worse I was warned by someone I didn't like who had the timerity to be right.  But then, I wouldn't have had the two kids that I did and then in turn my two wonderful, funny, smart granddaughters.  So that would be no good.  So in the end, although I have made many mistakes in my life I would not change anything, because then I would not be where I am today.
Title: Re: As a simplistic measure of how happy you are with your life
Post by: hermes2015 on November 27, 2020, 03:22:59 AM
One of the best going-back-in-time movies was Peggy Sue Got Married. Nicolas Cage was good in this movie, but I haven't liked him in anything since then.
Title: Re: As a simplistic measure of how happy you are with your life
Post by: Sandra Craft on November 27, 2020, 04:30:32 AM
Quote from: Anne D. on November 26, 2020, 03:36:58 AM

Sandra, the army? Really? I've always thought about what it might've been like to join up straight out of high school. Don't know if it would've been for the better or the worse.

Yeah, I don't mind rules, orders or regimentation, and it would have been a great way of getting a college education or at least some working experience.
Title: Re: As a simplistic measure of how happy you are with your life
Post by: Anne D. on November 27, 2020, 01:48:09 PM
Quote from: Sandra Craft on November 27, 2020, 04:30:32 AM
Quote from: Anne D. on November 26, 2020, 03:36:58 AM

Sandra, the army? Really? I've always thought about what it might've been like to join up straight out of high school. Don't know if it would've been for the better or the worse.

Yeah, I don't mind rules, orders or regimentation, and it would have been a great way of getting a college education or at least some working experience.

I guess knowing that the rules and regimentation were only for a finite time would make them a little more palatable too. I hear you on the education or experience front.

In my early twenties I had two female roommates who had each served in different branches, but both with the motivation to get college paid for. Neither one regretted her time in the military.
Title: Re: As a simplistic measure of how happy you are with your life
Post by: xSilverPhinx on November 27, 2020, 02:00:51 PM
Quote from: Bluenose on November 27, 2020, 03:05:16 AM
...So in the end, although I have made many mistakes in my life I would not change anything, because then I would not be where I am today.

I feel the same way, though if I could go back I would have treated certain people better, especially while going through a dark period during my late teens and another during my early twenties. I treated some people poorly who did nothing to  deserve being treated that way. 

Even though those dark times were distressing, I would go through them again as they have made me much more resilient now. Maybe even a little numb, but that's ok.

I would not have wasted a year enrolled in Portuguese-English studies at uni because my father said it would be a good idea, and then feel so disillusioned I didn't go back to uni for many years. That's precious time I will never get back.   
Title: Re: As a simplistic measure of how happy you are with your life
Post by: xSilverPhinx on November 27, 2020, 02:02:32 PM
Quote from: hermes2015 on November 27, 2020, 03:22:59 AM
One of the best going-back-in-time movies was Peggy Sue Got Married. Nicolas Cage was good in this movie, but I haven't liked him in anything since then.

:chin: I haven't seen that, but I can't stand Nicholas Cage. 
Title: Re: As a simplistic measure of how happy you are with your life
Post by: Anne D. on November 27, 2020, 02:04:20 PM
Quote from: hermes2015 on November 27, 2020, 03:22:59 AM
One of the best going-back-in-time movies was Peggy Sue Got Married. Nicolas Cage was good in this movie, but I haven't liked him in anything since then.

Nicolas Cage was good in Valley Girl and Raising Arizona. I forgot about Peggy Sue Got Married. But yeah, after that he became a terrible hack. 8MM is unwatchable, largely because of him.
Title: Re: As a simplistic measure of how happy you are with your life
Post by: xSilverPhinx on November 27, 2020, 02:07:32 PM
Quote from: No one on November 25, 2020, 01:30:15 PM
What makes you think I am not a wildebeest?

I didn't take you for a herd animal  :P
Title: Re: As a simplistic measure of how happy you are with your life
Post by: hermes2015 on November 27, 2020, 03:26:48 PM
Quote from: xSilverPhinx on November 27, 2020, 02:02:32 PM
Quote from: hermes2015 on November 27, 2020, 03:22:59 AM
One of the best going-back-in-time movies was Peggy Sue Got Married. Nicolas Cage was good in this movie, but I haven't liked him in anything since then.

:chin: I haven't seen that, but I can't stand Nicholas Cage.

I can't either. I'm always nervous when I tell people which actors I hate, in case they are devoted fans. On the other hand, I'm not shy to admit who I wouldn't kick out of my bed.
Title: Re: As a simplistic measure of how happy you are with your life
Post by: Randy on November 27, 2020, 03:38:27 PM
Quote from: hermes2015 on November 27, 2020, 03:26:48 PM
Quote from: xSilverPhinx on November 27, 2020, 02:02:32 PM
Quote from: hermes2015 on November 27, 2020, 03:22:59 AM
One of the best going-back-in-time movies was Peggy Sue Got Married. Nicolas Cage was good in this movie, but I haven't liked him in anything since then.

:chin: I haven't seen that, but I can't stand Nicholas Cage.

I can't either. I'm always nervous when I tell people which actors I hate, in case they are devoted fans. On the other hand, I'm not shy to admit who I wouldn't kick out of my bed.
You wouldn't have Nicholas Cage in your bed either? Good for you.

I don't mind him as long as the movie is good. I think the problem is that he seems to have the same persona with every movie. I guess quite a few stars do though.
Title: Re: As a simplistic measure of how happy you are with your life
Post by: No one on November 27, 2020, 03:42:41 PM
I hate
Adam Sandler
Russel Crowe
Martin Lawrence
Christian Bale
Matt Affleck
Jamie Fox
Colin Farrell
Jim Carrey
Adam Sandler
Russell Crowe.
Title: Re: As a simplistic measure of how happy you are with your life
Post by: hermes2015 on November 27, 2020, 04:25:23 PM
Quote from: No one on November 27, 2020, 03:42:41 PM
I hate
Adam Sandler
Russel Crowe
Martin Lawrence
Christian Bale
Matt Affleck
Jamie Fox
Colin Farrell
Jim Carrey
Adam Sandler
Russell Crowe.

I pretty much agree with your list, except for the young Matt Damon, who was cute. I would like to add Will Ferrell.
Title: Re: As a simplistic measure of how happy you are with your life
Post by: No one on November 27, 2020, 04:33:49 PM
Yes! Will Ferrell is another one who is s as funny as losing both balls to cancer, then coming home to find your family has been slaughtered.
Title: Re: As a simplistic measure of how happy you are with your life
Post by: xSilverPhinx on November 27, 2020, 04:46:44 PM
Definitely Adam Sandler and Will Ferrell...I can't stand the whole man-child thing.  ::)
Title: Re: As a simplistic measure of how happy you are with your life
Post by: Tank on November 27, 2020, 05:17:46 PM

Quote from: No one on November 27, 2020, 03:42:41 PM
I hate
Adam Sandler
Russel Crowe
Martin Lawrence
Christian Bale
Matt Affleck
Jamie Fox
Colin Farrell
Jim Carrey
Adam Sandler
Russell Crowe.

+ the rest of humanity - the other members of HAF
Title: Re: As a simplistic measure of how happy you are with your life
Post by: Randy on November 27, 2020, 05:26:23 PM
Will Ferell, Adam Sandler, and Jim Carey I can't stand. I avoid watching any movie with one of them in it.
Title: Re: As a simplistic measure of how happy you are with your life
Post by: hermes2015 on November 27, 2020, 05:34:29 PM
Quote from: Tank on November 27, 2020, 05:17:46 PM

Quote from: No one on November 27, 2020, 03:42:41 PM
I hate
Adam Sandler
Russel Crowe
Martin Lawrence
Christian Bale
Matt Affleck
Jamie Fox
Colin Farrell
Jim Carrey
Adam Sandler
Russell Crowe.

+ the rest of humanity - the other members of HAF

:thumbsup2:
Title: Re: As a simplistic measure of how happy you are with your life
Post by: No one on November 27, 2020, 05:39:57 PM
I didn't have the time or the inclination to name them all.
Title: Re: As a simplistic measure of how happy you are with your life
Post by: billy rubin on November 28, 2020, 12:27:51 AM
yo anne

raising arizona was a zpectacular movie that captured the region perfectly

except for the yodeling

i lived in tempe at the time and the movie was much more subtle than you would detect if you were not familiar with arizona culture.

where else could you drive by a billboard in suburban tempe that read

Dont Rob Banks

hollie hunter went on to star in the piano. my favorite motion picture of all time.
Title: Re: As a simplistic measure of how happy you are with your life
Post by: Anne D. on November 28, 2020, 06:13:17 AM
Quote from: billy rubin on November 28, 2020, 12:27:51 AM
yo anne

raising arizona was a zpectacular movie that captured the region perfectly

except for the yodeling

i lived in tempe at the time and the movie was much more subtle than you would detect if you were not familiar with arizona culture.

where else could you drive by a billboard in suburban tempe that read

Dont Rob Banks

hollie hunter went on to star in the piano. my favorite motion picture of all time.

I really loved Raising Arizona. Having never lived in Arizona, I'll have to trust you that it captured local culture perfectly, although I don't doubt it given the Coen brothers' talents. Are you a Fargo fan? I enjoyed both the movie and the TV series. The latest season is getting panned, but I think it's one of the better ones. I really didn't care for the one with Ewan MacGregor even though I like him a lot as an actor.
Title: Re: As a simplistic measure of how happy you are with your life
Post by: Bad Penny II on November 28, 2020, 08:57:58 AM
Quote from: No one on November 27, 2020, 03:42:41 PM
I hate
Adam Sandler
Russel Crowe
Martin Lawrence
Christian Bale
Matt Affleck
Jamie Fox
Colin Farrell
Jim Carrey
Adam Sandler
Russell Crowe.

How dare you! You've put our Russell in there twice!
Adam Sandler is extremely annoying, Anger Management was good though because of Jack Nicholson.
Christian Bale was a good Batman.
Is there more than one Affleck?
Jamie Fox, he was in Django Unchained which was OK
Colin Farrell was in In Bruges which was very good, I think his character was meant to be annoying.
Jim Carrey can make you cringe but he is very clever, his Count Orloff was brilliant.  Any way Lisa Simpson likes him and I've only known her to be wrong once.



Russel Crowe has been lots of good movies, he has had some crappy ones in recent years, Noah, The Water Diviner.  I'd of liked more Aubry/Maturin movies.



Title: Re: As a simplistic measure of how happy you are with your life
Post by: billy rubin on November 28, 2020, 02:40:35 PM
Quote from: Anne D. on November 28, 2020, 06:13:17 AM
I really loved Raising Arizona. Having never lived in Arizona, I'll have to trust you that it captured local culture perfectly, although I don't doubt it given the Coen brothers' talents. Are you a Fargo fan? I enjoyed both the movie and the TV series. The latest season is getting panned, but I think it's one of the better ones. I really didn't care for the one with Ewan MacGregor even though I like him a lot as an actor.

im instantly out of my depth. i ve never seen any fargo episodes or the movie.
Title: Re: As a simplistic measure of how happy you are with your life
Post by: Anne D. on November 28, 2020, 06:18:22 PM
Quote from: billy rubin on November 28, 2020, 02:40:35 PM
Quote from: Anne D. on November 28, 2020, 06:13:17 AM
I really loved Raising Arizona. Having never lived in Arizona, I'll have to trust you that it captured local culture perfectly, although I don't doubt it given the Coen brothers' talents. Are you a Fargo fan? I enjoyed both the movie and the TV series. The latest season is getting panned, but I think it's one of the better ones. I really didn't care for the one with Ewan MacGregor even though I like him a lot as an actor.

im instantly out of my depth. i ve never seen any fargo episodes or the movie.

Check them out. If you liked Raising AZ's quirkiness, you'll like Fargo.
Title: Re: As a simplistic measure of how happy you are with your life
Post by: Ecurb Noselrub on November 28, 2020, 07:26:30 PM
There are a dozen or so things I'm ashamed of. Otherwise, I've lived a pretty good life.
Title: Re: As a simplistic measure of how happy you are with your life
Post by: billy rubin on November 28, 2020, 11:46:21 PM
Quote from: Anne D. on November 28, 2020, 06:18:22 PM

Check them out. If you liked Raising AZ's quirkiness, you'll like Fargo.

lol. im afraid i dont do television things anymore. i dont know how they work.

maybe ill get a teenager to turn it on
Title: Re: As a simplistic measure of how happy you are with your life
Post by: xSilverPhinx on November 29, 2020, 12:44:03 PM
Quote from: billy rubin on November 28, 2020, 11:46:21 PM
Quote from: Anne D. on November 28, 2020, 06:18:22 PM

Check them out. If you liked Raising AZ's quirkiness, you'll like Fargo.

lol. im afraid i dont do television things anymore. i dont know how they work.

maybe ill get a teenager to turn it on

First you need to summon a demon who knows everything there is to know about lousy reality shows.  :cauldron: Chant the following into the keyhole of your front door:

Kim Kardashian! Kim Kardashian! Kim Kardashian!

A reality tv demon should appear almost instantly. :grin:
Title: Re: As a simplistic measure of how happy you are with your life
Post by: billy rubin on November 30, 2020, 04:44:11 PM
lol
Title: Re: As a simplistic measure of how happy you are with your life
Post by: Davin on December 02, 2020, 06:05:51 PM
It's difficult to answer the OP question for me.

I think things I would definitely change is trying to get my personal project shit together much sooner. I'd also do my finances better.

Considering where I am though, I'd try not to change anything that would affect the other areas of my life.
Title: Re: As a simplistic measure of how happy you are with your life
Post by: xSilverPhinx on December 02, 2020, 08:02:59 PM
Quote from: Davin on December 02, 2020, 06:05:51 PM
It's difficult to answer the OP question for me.

I'm also finding it more difficult than I previously thought. My answer is fluid.  :P
Title: Re: As a simplistic measure of how happy you are with your life
Post by: Harmonie on December 04, 2020, 02:17:08 PM
I'd most definitely go back and change things! Like there's countless things! The most important being me taking better care of myself in those first couple of years post-high school. I'd give anything to go back and fix that. It has set my life on a very weird, slow track and I'm also suspecting that it was a part of the reason that my ex-girlfriend whom I loved so dearly dumped me (not the fact that I had medical issues, but the fact that I couldn't drive and be independent enough).

I'd also love to go back and change how my recent health issues were handled, because that has been another huge dark cloud over me for nearly three years now and if you didn't notice, I didn't need another one of those.

Otherwise there are certainly some things I would have done differently with my ex-girlfriend. Mistakes I shouldn't have made. Mistakes I never even got to apologize for. Oooh I hate myself sooo much for those stupid mistakes. In reality, they were minuscule (which is why I was able to make them) but the way she is, and the way she opened up to me so much it was HUGE.

Okay, enough about her, though! I'm okay! The love of my life may be long gone, but... I'm fine! I'm over her! (Actually I seriously am. Lol I'm being a drama queen here)

Another thing is I'd change how I treated people when I was in high school. I was hard to get along with, both online and IRL. I stirred all kinds of trouble, I was a spoiled brat, I was closed-minded to forms of media I was ignorant of, and I just treated people badly in general.
Title: Re: As a simplistic measure of how happy you are with your life
Post by: Davin on December 04, 2020, 04:48:35 PM
Quote from: Harmonie on December 04, 2020, 02:17:08 PM
Another thing is I'd change how I treated people when I was in high school. I was hard to get along with, both online and IRL. I stirred all kinds of trouble, I was a spoiled brat, I was closed-minded to forms of media I was ignorant of, and I just treated people badly in general.
I feel you a lot there.

The issue I have with my history though, is that the feelings of guilt and embarrassment I have when I remember them, affects how I act now. Hurting people then was terrible, even if it was minor harm, which helps me be less of an asshole now. I didn't think I was the asshole back then when I was doing that shit, that comes from looking back. And I think that without those events to look back on, I wouldn't have grown.

I apologize to those that I can, but I think that going back and changing those actions would make the current me a worse person because I'd be pushing those life lessons further down the road. Which would mean that I'd be even less socially and morally developed than I am now.