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My Human Love omg
« on: December 20, 2014, 12:37:15 AM »
It's been like what, a year and a half since my Pakistani Warrior Princess (I wrote about her earlier, she's Islamic but more importantly, anxious)? I kid you not, I met one:

- on the Eiffeltower
- at a party, and she was Chinese
- on a loneliness website
- in World of Warcraft
- in London
- one asked me to meet up in Rotterdam for smoking some pot, no idea how I managed to screw up that one, if I did at all

The only one at my age was the Chinese and one in Warcraft who was older than me, the rest was around 20 and except the Chinese and the older one they were all online relationships.

But well I think I have to extend my list as I seem to have topped myself again. Before I explain I should add that I told myself "no, no more falling into the trap of 20 year olds looking for daddy attention". So last summer I found out I have autism (had a diagnosis), which I think may be causing me to connect to younger women as part of my brain appears to be underdeveloped due to autism. No evidence or diagnosis, but I can imagine that. So anyways, after diagnosis I started following psycho-education to learn and improve my thinking and dealing with all kinds of social events. But I can't help but feeling connection with women if there is a connection.

So yes of course, fate has its ways, and at education I found one really nice piece of fate.

She's 23, kind of a minimum age in my opinion. 9 years younger. So I got to think, what if she's underdeveloped as well? The romantic brain of a 16 year old? Oh dear, omg, did I do it worse this time? Anyways, my first thought was "hey she's nice", and my second was "okay Mikey this one's not gonna happen anywhere near this education". So I kept up my pokerface throughout the classes which is easy as an autist anyway, and I managed to more or less get through the education without attracting too much to her. I did want to talk to her and try keep in touch, but that was too difficult for me so I let it slide a little and kept my focus on the education.

Turns out that, apparently, she's been into me as well all the time. I have my doubts, I get insecure, but I surely gave it a lot of time and not going to worry much more about her age. My parents' age difference is fifteen whopping years, so I nicely scraped off 6 years and am well on the road to perfect numerical happiness for possible offspring.

The nice thing is that this fine lady lives 30 minutes cycling from me, has the same condition so we understand each other, and even though she's had a heavy past she works hard to keep up the balance in her life and makes some good friends and knows she needs the right people around her.

So I'm just like "okayy hooold on I've had my own bit of troubles and trying to recover from that." Or well, I am trying to tell her that. She just keeps working on the contact with me though, and I can't really ignore that. So we're having really good chats for the moment, and the start of next year we may be planning a first meetup. Still this is unlike any other relationship I have been in. It is so difficult because conventional ways don't work, you have to be smart and say the things in order to understand each other without making pressure. It is like hardmode love, but somehow I have no problem at all with that. And just like always I hope to get something steady out of it. :)

So far so good, hope it will have continuation.
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Re: My Human Love omg
« Reply #1 on: December 20, 2014, 01:47:28 AM »
So yes of course, fate has its ways, and at education I found one really nice piece of fate.

Ass God, it's "I found one really nice piece of ass"!








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Re: My Human Love omg
« Reply #2 on: December 20, 2014, 05:22:24 AM »
Try not to over-think things if you can and enjoy them for what they are.
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Re: My Human Love omg
« Reply #3 on: December 24, 2014, 10:32:48 PM »
I'm an Assgod who met a Goddass but lol I know I know

People tell me I overthink, and the reason I do that is because I feel a bit stressed and then I blurt out a lot. I always think a lot though, for an average human. Maybe some meditation would help if I can manage to change it in my daily routine.
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Re: My Human Love omg
« Reply #4 on: December 24, 2014, 11:04:38 PM »
So yes of course, fate has its ways, and at education I found one really nice piece of fate.

Ass[,] God, it's "I found one really nice piece of ass"!
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Re: My Human Love omg
« Reply #5 on: December 25, 2014, 03:15:59 PM »
So yes of course, fate has its ways, and at education I found one really nice piece of fate.

Ass[,] God, it's "I found one really nice piece of ass"!
Beat The Asmo to it.  :D

You know, I waffled on that comma for about five minutes. Should I shoot for proper grammar or attempt to convey natural speech? Proper grammar..... natural speech..... ?! In the end I went with natural speech, though my accent may not lend itself to textual communication.
 

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Re: My Human Love omg
« Reply #6 on: November 16, 2015, 12:23:43 AM »
It's been about a year and we're still happily together. Interesting fact, this autism thing throughout the relationship. We're doing great and learning from each other and growing the relationship day by day. The most difficult thing is to spend more than 2 days together. We can handle most things well but to sustain it is the challenge here. When we don't take sufficient space we both get into an unwanted mood eventually, getting us stuck real fast, resulting in a tantrum or blackout. Luckily we can manage to avoid these things by taking an hour or two to recover in between. Twice/thrice a day does the trick.

I really hope we're going to make it in life. She already feels like a lifebuddy as well as romantic lover (and everything else too..:P). Soon we'll be celebrating our 1 year anniversary and the best thing is that we made this choice without the interference of any delusions like religion. Gladly she is not religious, merely believing in having a personal relationship with God.
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Re: My Human Love omg
« Reply #7 on: November 16, 2015, 12:33:13 AM »
That's so sweet!  :grin:
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Re: My Human Love omg
« Reply #8 on: November 16, 2015, 09:36:30 AM »
I'm very happy for you, God!  I sincerely hope it continues. :D

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Re: My Human Love omg
« Reply #9 on: November 16, 2015, 10:23:23 AM »
Thanks a lot you two :)
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Re: My Human Love omg
« Reply #10 on: November 16, 2015, 04:00:45 PM »
Thanks for the update, God. Glad to hear that things are going well.  :sidesmile:
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Re: My Human Love omg
« Reply #11 on: November 23, 2015, 07:48:23 PM »
Thanks Recusant. I believe a new update will be coming later next year :D
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