...Ever since I gave my life to Lord, I don’t have that void anymore, that void that I’m pretty sure everyone who is reading this probably has if they don’t know the Lord. I know that feeling, it’s horrible, you try to fill it with sex, drugs, drinking, smoking, being abusive, being mean, I know that feeling. I was filled with lust trying to fill that void, and I was so mean to people, so mean to people, anyone reading this I was mean to, I’m truly sorry and I deserve that Hell I experienced because I was mean to you. I have honestly felt more outgoing to be nice to people, and my sinful desires are still there, the things I struggle with are still there, but they aren’t being thrown at me like they once were, so I know God intervened in things...
I read most of what you wrote, and I have one very important comment. Your experience and opinion of what it means to be an atheist is completely and totally wrong. Most atheists I know are exceedingly happy, fullfilled, productive members of society. None of the ones I know in person (at least a dozen) are into drugs, casual sex, hatred, abuse, alcohol, or cigarettes. most of us don't feel a void in our lives. We're regular people, living regular lives. I gain my happiness from creating art, from hiking in nature, from playing with my dogs, from gathering with friends, from dining with my family ... the list goes on.
Your emptiness was your situation. It is not an atheist problem. You are confusing cause and effect. In fact, I would venture to say that the vast majority of people I know who are addicted and struggling are christians. Perhaps because there's a majority of them here, and these issues are not related to a god belief. In fact, if you look at my extended family, every single teen pregnancy, every single drug addict, every single alcoholic, every single abuser, is christian. The worst of them was a minister. On the other hand, all my immediate family are non-believers. We are all happy, productive members of society. College educated, no issues, kids in college ... your assumptions completely break down in my experience.
If you're still here (and not a drive by poster) it'll be interesting to continue the discussion. I hope you'll put in a few more paragraph breaks, though ... it was very difficult to wade through.