I spend probably an hour a day doing things that as a Christian, I wouldn't have done, and that make me consider life and thoughts through the eyes of atheism. Some of that is milti-tasking: as I'm getting ready for the day, I often will be listening to you tube videos from Richard Dawkins, Jaclyn Glenn, Christopher Hitchens, The Atheist Experience or just plain old Matt Dillahunty, Deter Lucem, and others. I watch (listen) to that stuff mostly for entertainment, and the occasional enlightenment. And often, I will spend a little time here, or other reading sites, which I guess counts as "focusing on atheism".
So now I wonder....
Also, sometimes I do read the Bible if I get tempted to go back.
What tempts you to "go back"? Fear? Uncertainty? Loneliness? What?