Hi. I live in West Texas. I've come to be a pretty intense introvert, and even writing this introduction is a bit difficult, though writing is probably what I do best. I guess I'm not quite sure where to begin.
Maybe with why I'm here. I stopped believing in god a few years ago, and it was a huge relief. This year, however, I've been going through some struggles with my career, and I've been at a loss as to what I should do next. Before in my life, I relied a lot on instinct, which I believed (at the time) was directed by God or the Cosmos or something. Now that I've been trying to figure out a new direction for my life, or find actions to take to change my life, I find I'm struggling a lot with it. I don't know if it's because I don't trust my instincts anymore, or if there's just nothing out there getting my instinct's attention, or if I'm just out of touch with my instincts now, or what. I often feel like I've come to a dead end. Or at least to a place in the world where there are no longer any maps, and I just have to make them for myself now. I just don't seem to be very good at that part. Not yet.
I tried seeing a confidential counselor provided through my place of work, but I didn't find the sessions particularly helpful. He wanted to talk about the situation I'm having at work and help me cope with it, while I wanted to talk about who I am, what I want to do next, and how to go about finding new, more meaningful work. I think, with regard to my job, I'm a bit beyond trying to change my state of mind about it and learn to be satisfied. I've tried very hard to change my perspective, because I know a positive outlook can help (I've managed to do this this in the past), but I just can't seem to do it anymore.
I guess I wondered how other atheists have changed their careers or have chosen what their purpose in life would be. How do you match up who you are with a job? Are there any threads here or websites elsewhere that might be helpful for a introverted nonbeliever looking to switch gears in life? Any good life stories?
The name for this forum caught my attention. Despite my skepticism about a lot of things, I've found I'm also a nearly perpetual optimist. So much so I even get on my own nerves sometimes. It just seems to be in my nature.
Thanks in advance for any resources/discussion.
P.S. I recently read this letter by Hunter S. Thompson (whose work I've never read or been interested in), and it echoed a lot of what I've been thinking lately. I thought what he had to say about goals was kind of interesting, too, since I've always been achievement oriented. http://www.lettersofnote.com/2016/07/your-type-is-dime-dozen.html